its 1:58 a.m.

Im at my friend logan house. We decided to be random and make random super coffee drinks. Well after our mega drinks we decided to watch. Orange County, With jack black....

Well after watching this movie, ive come to a conclusion. The actor spends his entire life living in Orange County, Well a tragedy strikes and one of his friends are lost. Well he then tries to go to Stanford, Well he was struck with a streak of bad luck. He then goes ona giant trip to try to get into a school that at the end he realizes that he doesnt even wanna go.

Well, what i deciphered from that is that we dont know what we wanna do until the very end of a decision that was made for us. Well i dont wanna be like anyone else and have to tell someone that everything is gonna be fien adn alright when i know nothing is going to be alright and its gonna be all fucked up in the end. I would rather be the heartless blood thirsty prick that everyone calls me but i cant. I try to treat others better then myself and sadly its a failing act of kindness. With everything ive done nothing seems to be going alright. And well im sick and tired of being nice to absolute fucktards.

So with this conclusion i realize not everyone deserves to be nice. And well id rather be a dick then try to be nice. But then again why should i let others suffer for the actions of just one person. So i ignore them each adn everyday.

As my rage slowly builds adn starts to take control of my very being. But i fight it everyday and yet i dont know why i keep trying to make everyone feel safe when the battle for my very love and rage is building, boiling, ready to break free adn end all those who deserve the very judgement they so deserve.

I just hope to god that my sanity remains intact, otherwise i fear that this may be the end of all my harm and all my troubles.